The truth is… I have let myself down.
The truth is… I didn’t want to admit it to myself, or any of you.
The truth is… I haven’t exercised regularly since the beginning of the summer.
The truth is… I haven’t tracked my food since the last time I exercised regularly.
The truth is… I have been living in denial.
The truth is… I have had to buy bigger pants.
The truth is… I am bigger than I have ever been in my life.
The truth is… I don’t like what I see when I look in the mirror.
The truth is… I have been living in denial.
The truth is… I counting calories seems foreign to me.
The truth is… I have forgotten what it’s like to like a healthy life.
The truth is… I have forgotten how to live.
The truth is… I miss blogging.
The truth is… I miss fruits and veggies being a regular part of my diet.
The truth is… I have eaten what I want, when I wanted, with no thought about the consequences.
The truth is… I feel like I let my blog down.
The truth is… I have been more sick this fall then I remember being in a long time.
The truth is… I blame it on my lifestyle.
The truth is… I am tired of being lazy.
The truth is… I am ready to get my life back to where it once was.
The truth is… my camera was stolen when my house was broken into.
The truth is… I need to start taking pictures of my eats for the day like I used to.
The truth is… It’s time to be honest.
I have missed everyone.
I have missed commenting on blogs, though I never stopped reading them.
I felt like a failure. It wasn’t something that I wanted to admit to myself or to any of you so I took a hiatus. If I didn’t see it in print then it wasn’t true.
If I covered my weight gain up with a bigger size pant, and loose fitting shirts then no one would know.
I don’t know if it was that I didn’t realize what I was doing all along, or if it was that I didn’t want to admit it.
This summer through me for a loop, but I didn’t think that I was that weak that I would let a little heartache detour my from the journey I was on. I didn’t think I would let anyone have that control.
It’s time that I take the blinders off.
It’s time that I go back to what I know.
It’s time that I get my life back.
And that is the truth.
November 8, 2011 at 1:33 pm
Oh, my dear! I just wrote a similar post last week. Sending you lots of love. You can move forward & get yourself (and body) back again. One day at a time. You can do it, we can do it. I believe in you just like everyone else beloved in me last week.
November 9, 2011 at 4:55 pm
Thanks Sabrina! It’s cause of people like you I came back to blogging. I missed all the support I found on here.
November 8, 2011 at 8:01 pm
You can do this! Getting back on with eating will help you in all aspects. You’ll feel so much better.
I can’t wait to read about it. 
November 9, 2011 at 4:57 pm
Thanks! I know I can do this. I was in a funk for so long. It’s time to get out of that funk and get myself back on track.
November 8, 2011 at 10:45 pm
Sending love and positive vibes your way! Hang in there girl!
November 9, 2011 at 4:54 pm
Thanks! I’m getting my life back… how I’ve missed it.
November 9, 2011 at 2:39 pm
I was wondering where you were & how you’ve been.
I’ve been in the same funk & haven’t blogged either. Your post made me realize I can easily get back into it – just need to take that first step!
November 9, 2011 at 4:54 pm
I forgot how much I missed blogging. I forgot about all the support I get here. So glad that I realized what I was missing. Thanks for sticking around!!