So as I sit and write this first post I’m excited and scared. This is completely stepping out of my comfort zone. This is admitting to the world that, yes, I struggle with my weight. This topic is so private to me. I cringe when someone talks about something that I am eating. I refuse to go out to eat by myself. My eating habits are really what others are eating around me. Why I care what other people think? I have no idea. And really does anyone else care what I am eating? Probably not. But I still sit there and think that someone is going to look at my plate and think, “She should not be eating that.” I would much rather eat in private.
I’m an emotional eater. I eat when I’m bored. I use food as a reward. I think I might be obsessed with food. Every day is a struggle.
I wish I could just sit back and not have to worry about what I’m eating. It feels like a second job sometimes. Planning out my menu a day or two ahead, calculating the calories, measuring out everything I eat. I measure my cereal. I measure the cream I put in my coffee. Everyday I learn a little more. Now I need to look at the carbs, because for every 4 carbs, it equals 1 tsp of sugar. How crazy is that? That’s what all this is for me. It’s a learning process. I need to find what works for me.
This is my first post. I’ll add pics. I’ll show you what I eat. I’ll keep you updated. My first challenge for myself is starting tomorrow (I know that is a common phrase…haha) I’m going to do Jillian Michaels 3o day Shred. I want to see what it really does for you in 30 days. I’ll take measurements tomorrow and track it for 30 days. Some days I might do more than just the 30 day shred, other days that might be it. See you tomorrow!