Well, I finally got a good night’s sleep last night. Woohooo! I slept the whole night without waking up, which is a good thing. I haven’t been sleeping through the night lately and my energy level has been way down. I woke up at 0700 and went right to my 30 day shred dvd. Well, that’s after putting the heat on. I looked at the Thermostat and it read 58 degrees! Brrrr! I was so glad to get my exercise in first thing this morning. I think that it always makes me more productive when I start my day off right. For breakfast I made some potato, apple, and onion hash. I cooked it up with 1/4 cup Egg Beaters and felt content for the morning.
For snack I had some of my homemade applesauce.
I got a lot done around the house, and felt like it didn’t look like a hurricane went through my living room anymore. I crossed a few things off of my to do list, and was feeling good this afternoon.
For lunch I was planning on having a salad with some grilled chicken, apple, glazed walnuts, and balsamic vinegar, but when I cut into the apple it wasn’t as crisp as I wanted it to be. I have issues with apples. I can not eat them if they are mealy. I need them to be nice and crisp, so I put the cut apple aside and figured that I’m going to have to cook with the rest of them. It didn’t ruin my salad though, I just switched the apples for tomatoes. It was a great salad and the glazed walnuts added just the right sweetness to it.
The rest of the day was spent getting ready to go to my nephew’s second birthday party. He is the cutest little boy if I do say so myself. I didn’t get any pictures…sorry! Dinner there was some veggie lasagna, salad, and bread. We also had pumpkin cupcakes. It was quite the filling meal.
My snacks for the rest of the night consist of a cup o’ grapes, carrots with 1 tbs Green Goddess dressing, and a Slim Fast. I have already ate my three meals for the day, and have a while that I’ll still be up, so I sometimes drink a Slim Fast to keep me satisfied.
I just wanted to say that sometimes I feel like I’m running in place on this journey. It feels like no matter what I do, I just can’t get it right. My 30th birthday party is little over a month away. I had big plans for myself. I wanted a cute little dress. I wanted to shed some of this weight. I wanted to be a little more confident in myself. I don’t think I’ll be there. I feel like I have failed myself. I feel discouraged. I guess this is one of those down moments… we all have them right? Ok, so here is what I want to do.
Here are my November Goals:
1) Journal everything I eat, that extra latte, that fun sized candy bar. If it crosses my lips I’ll write it down. I’ll calculate the calories.
2) Exercise, exercise, exercise
3) Limit alcohol… I would like to say that I won’t drink any, but I know that I would be lying to myself.
4) Don’t get down on myself… life happens, stay motivated.
5) Remember that even if it feels like I’m running in place, I will get to where I want to be. It’ll take time.
Thanks for listening to my rambling. It’s just been one of those days. I feel like I know what I have to do. I know what I need to do, but something just doesn’t feel right with what I’m doing. I’ll figure it out…