First, I want to apologize for this post.
The past few days have been really rough… starting with Thanksgiving. What started out as a happy holiday spent with family ended in tears, heart ache, and wounds that I just don’t know how long will take to heal. As I sit reading all of your blogs recapping your holiday and the joy that you all experienced I am left with an ache in my heart. I had planned on recapping on the day the foods that we ate, which was plentiful, and sharing pictures of smiling faces I just can’t bring myself to post any pictures knowing the way things turn out. I know all families have their share of fights, and I know that as a family we’ll pull through, but right now it is so hard.
I haven’t mentioned this before, but right now I feel the need to share something with you all, because I know that I won’t be looked at any different than before. I suffer from depression. It’s something I have dealt with for a long time, and sometimes it’s a struggle. I am on medication for it, and most times I feel like it’s under control. I live my life, and am usually an upbeat and positive person, but when things in my life go wrong it seems to threw me off-balance.
We went to Va Beach to see the Holiday Lights that are set up on the beach. They are beautiful and if you’re not in the Christmas spirit you will be after driving through all those lights. I took pictures and will hopefully post them soon. I can’t say it was the most enjoyable trip with my family due to the night before, but I’m glad I went. My daughter had a great time.
And now today I sit here feeling lost. I feel an ache that I just can’t get rid of. I can’t sit and post my eats when I am feeling the way I do. I hope to go to sleep tonight and wake up feeling a little more at peace. I wish I could shut off all the thought racing through my head, and the replaying of the events of the past few days.
I’m sorry guys to be the downer of the day, but I feel like this is now my outlet. I love blogging. I love sharing my thoughts, the good and the bad.
I hope to be back tomorrow with a more positive post, but for now I just want to say… thanks for listening.