If I was a nail biter, I would be biting my nails right now.
But since I’m not I’m having a little of this
in a little of that.
And what is making me drink at 4:00 in the afternoon? Well, not that I need a reason, but tomorrow at 9:00 I will be interviewing for a new position. I’ve been in the same job for 6 years, and though this job is in the same department, it is for a supervisors position. I’m super nervous. I don’t do well in interviews. I get nervous. My palms get sweaty and it’s hard to talk when my stomach feels like it’s in my throat. Oh, and my mind often goes blank. I’ve been trying to think of questions they might ask. Think of all the things I remember to say. Tonight is going to be a looooonnnnngggg night. Please keep your fingers crossed for me. And please don’t uncross them until tomorrow at 9:30. Thank you 🙂
So let me move on to the food for the day.
Last night as I was
running walking on the treadmill my Dad called me to say that the weatherman just didn’t know what the weather was going to do overnight. We were supposed to get a wintery mix that would eventually turn to rain, but the roads were going to be unpredictable when I had to leave for work in the morning. Rather than chancing it I decided to pack my things and head over to my friend’s house so that I could be close to work.
I packed my breakfast, snacks, and lunch
and was ready to hit the road.
I don’t know about you, but when I stay somewhere else unexpected it throws my life a little out of whack. I’m a planner. I like structure. I like my routine. So when I woke up this morning, and had to drive into work in a little bit of icy conditions I figured that risking my life was worth a Starbucks. Plus, I had a free coupon for a drink of my chosing from my birthday. I decided to go with a white chocolate mocha. Grande. Regular. With all the fat and calories that come along with it. It was free. It was for my birthday. I was allowed to treat myself. It also took place of my breakfast. I went to work and logged it into my weight watchers tracker. And for those of you that are wondering that drink was worth 13 points. I will keep that in mind for future purchases.
For snack I had Chobani plain yogurt with a few nut clusters.
Then my day got tricky….
You see I have a friend. A guy friend at work. The guy from my dinner date (if you have been reading you know a little about my friend). We work out of the same building, but not always at the same time, so since we were both there during the day. He brought me lunch. Now I can easily say no to chinese leftovers, but I can’t say no to a lunch that was bought for me. He brought me the best Cream of Crab soup from a little place called The Towne Mouse.
I estimated the soup to be about 10 points. But then I had half of a steak and cheese. Odd combination, but oh so good. I estimated the sub to be 13 points. Now this friend has no idea of my weight loss struggles. It’s not something I share with a lot of people, and especially not a guy friend. I went over my points for the day, but I logged everything I ate today. I’m okay with it. I used some of my weekly allowance points, but I still have a lot leftover. I know that tomorrow I won’t be eating like I did today. It goes back to not having the structure in the beginning of the day. It throws my whole day off. I saved the rest of the soup for this evening. After my HUGE lunch, I don’t need too much this evening.
As I write this I can’t believe how honest I am being. I thought about what I would write on my way home today. Would I tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Yes. I had to. I made a promise to myself that I would be completely honest from now on. I will have good days. I will have bad days. I will have a good day (yesterday) and a bad day (today) back to back, but I’m learning. I learn as I go.