So I woke up this morning determined that today was going to be a better day.
I had two meals that I was going to cook. The first one was a recipe that I got out of the All You magazine, Slow-Cooker Bolognese Sauce. I was excited to get the crock pot out and having a meal cooking all day. I stopped by the grocery store to get some Italian bread. I invited my friends Erin and Kris and their kids, and my friend Stacy. I felt like it was going to be a good Sunday. A big dinner with friends and family ala those Sunday Italian dinners, where you just have everyone around you. I need people around me.
For the Bolognese Sauce…
I chopped a carrot, a ccelery stalk, and onions.
Melt a tbs of butter and cook everything from above picture for 5 minutes on medium heat.
Add ground beef, and turn heat to high. Cook until the beef is no longer pink, about five minutes.
Next up add a cup of milk and a cup of white wine…bring to a boil. Lower heat and cook at a lively simmer until most of the liquid has evaporated, about 15 mintues.
Transfer to a slow cooker, add 2 28 oz cans of crushed tomoatoes and let it simmer for the next 8 hours.
I knew what has been missing from my mornings and decided to make a Green Monster. I haven’t had one in maybe a week and I knew that a Green Monster would make everything better.
Next up I made the garlic butter for the bread.
I blended it in a food processor to make a quick garlic spread.
I cleaned up the dining room, cleaned off the table so that the only center piece was the pink roses that were delivered to me on Friday when I was at work. It made me feel so special, just knowing that someone cares.
Once all the food prep was done I decided to sit down and catch up on some blog reading. I read Tina’s post on how other’s love you and how you need to let other’s love you. I started crying. Her blog spoke to me today. I have the hardest time feeling like I’m worth the love others want to give. I have the hardest time believing in the love that others want to give. And right now when I feel so alone, I kind of need that reminder that I’m not.
And then 3 hours before dinner Kris calls to let me know that they got an unexpected to babysitter and he was taking Erin out for dinner for Valentine’s Day. And I broke down in tears again. I’m not upset. They don’t owe me anything. It is not there fought that I am craving company. That I want to be surrounded by people who do care about me.
It seems like the tears come a little to easily these days.
So hopefully Stacy will be here to enjoy my dinner with me.
The other recipe I made was Thai Beef Patties. I’ll share that recipe when I actually eat it 🙂
Have a wonderful rest of your Sunday.