Yesterday evening one of the guys at work was going to Starbucks.
And so of course I gave him a pleading look until he asked me what I wanted.
“Mocha Coconut Frappuccino, please.”
My day was made.
I sat at my desk and happily slurped away at my drink savoring it and making sure not to drink it too fast.
I didn’t drink all of it, and didn’t touch any of the whipped cream on top.
Then it started happening.
My heart started beating hard and fast.
I started to feel shaky and weak.
I thought here we go…
I’m going to have another panic attack.
But I didn’t. I stayed calm and eventually… a long eventually it passed.
I came home last night and wrote in my food journal…
Coconut Mocha frap= heart pounding, sweaty hands, shaky, weak.
I was a little sad, because I know that a coconut mocha will not be in my future.
A few days ago I told you that I was trying to switch from coffee to tea. That lasted about 3 days. I love my coffee. The taste, the smell, the thought of coffee in the morning.
I’m going to keep track of how regular coffee makes me feel when I drink it.
I decided last night that I was going to figure myself out. Along with learning how to eat for my body and learning to have a good relationship with food, I need to learn about what food triggers my anxiety so that I can stay away from those foods.
I’m keeping a journal of the food I eat, the drinks I drink, how I feel after eating… it’s time for me to stop playing around and figure out what is best for me.
This mornings breakfast is
Blueberry muffin, and Yoplait smoothie.
It’s a good way to start off the day.
How did you start off you day this morning?
Is there a food that you love, but you had to give up for your health?