Bye bye Frappe

Yesterday evening one of the guys at work was going to Starbucks.

And so of course I gave him a pleading look until he asked me what I wanted.

“Mocha Coconut Frappuccino, please.”

My day was made.

I sat at my desk and happily slurped away at my drink savoring it and making sure not to drink it too fast.

I didn’t drink all of it, and didn’t touch any of the whipped cream on top.

Then it started happening.

My heart started beating hard and fast.

I started to feel shaky and weak. 

I thought here we go…

I’m going to have another panic attack.

But I didn’t.  I stayed calm and eventually… a long eventually it passed.

I came home last night and wrote in my food journal…

Coconut Mocha frap= heart pounding, sweaty hands, shaky, weak.

I was a little sad, because I know that a coconut mocha will not be in my future.

A few days ago I told you that I was trying to switch from coffee to tea.  That lasted about 3 days.  I love my coffee.  The taste, the smell, the thought of coffee in the morning.

I’m going to keep track of how regular coffee makes me feel when I drink it.

I decided last night that I was going to figure myself out.  Along with learning how to eat for my body and learning to have a good relationship with food, I need to learn about what food triggers my anxiety so that I can stay away from those foods.

I’m keeping a journal of the food I eat, the drinks I drink, how I feel after eating… it’s time for me to stop playing around and figure out what is best for me.

This mornings breakfast is

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Blueberry muffin, and Yoplait smoothie.

It’s a good way to start off the day.

How did you start off you day this morning?

Is there a food that you love, but you had to give up for your health?

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3 Responses to “Bye bye Frappe”

  1. Laura Says:

    I’m pretty lucky in that there’s no food I HAVE to give up… just a lot of foods that I SHOULD, haha.

  2. Tina Says:

    And all this time, I thought my heart pitter-pattered over my love of coffee–not from caffeine sensitivity! 😉

    I think Starbucks makes decaf versions of the Frappucinos so you may not have to give it up. I’ve definitely decreased my caffeine consumption–currently due to pregnancy, but I had done in earlier (March 2010, maybe?) because I thought it was burning out my adrenal system and resulting in slower weight loss. Quitting it wasn’t so bad. I had decaf instead, because I still love the taste and just that simple tradition of a morning cup of hot coffee–or an iced coffee on a hot afternoon.

    Aside from that, I only ever had to give up cantaloupe, which was my favorite fruit until I learned I was actually highly sensitive to it.

    • kristisn Says:

      Thanks… I’ll have to look into the decaf kind. But for now I’m trying all their other coconut creme frappe… with no caffeine. I’m just on a coconut kick right now.
      I have so many flavors of coffee in my pantry that will call my name if I try to quit. Maybe when I get through those I’ll switch to decaf.


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